Oh life.
Brain.
Emotions and hormones.
Okay, chemical imbalance or not, we are all on a different playing field.
We ALL react to stress differently, we ALL handle life differently.
My journey has brought me to this.
You have to find what works best for you.
It’s not about being weak and wanting to eliminate feelings.
Quite the contrary.
It’s about finding a balance so that we CAN feel feelings, rather than stay in one monstrous one for an extended period of time.
I set on my journey to see where God really wanted me. I followed every twist and turn, and held onto hope the entire time. It’s not been easy. But, I have pressed on seeking the Lord and the counsel of wise friends and mentors. I’ve not been alone.
I’ve learned important lessons too.
I appreciate more the simple moments of life.
I have a deeper love and appreciation for those who have taken the time to listen, pray, and still love me throughout it all.
I am more madly in love with my husband who has been unbelievably patient, loving, supportive and understanding through each and every icky moment.
It’s been a LONG and sometimes very tiring 2 and a half months.
Trying this, reading that, staying one step ahead, and tossing all the conflicting information back and forth in my head wondering what is true and what is not.
And through it all, I have continually dropped to my knees asking God to simply make it clear to me.
I have been up and down, and back and forth with my theories.
I’ve read the books, the message boards, all the research I could find….
and this is what it came down to.
What worked for some, didn’t work for others.
And vice versa.
And vice versa.
I also learned that there is always an extreme opinion one way or another.
And really, what lies there in middle is what I find to have the most truth.
And really, what lies there in middle is what I find to have the most truth.
We will never be free of emotions.
Or moods.
We are human.
Perfectly imperfect humans.
And I believe God made us that way, and it’s okay, because it just shows how much we NEED Him….
Or moods.
We are human.
Perfectly imperfect humans.
And I believe God made us that way, and it’s okay, because it just shows how much we NEED Him….
That has been my biggest lesson.
Where there were times I used to feel alone, I now know without a shadow of a doubt, that I am NOT.
He is always there, always ready to carry my burden…
he is ALWAYS my strength and comfort.
John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
That said, we live in a world now where there is comfort and relief in medication.
And if you find that NOTHING else has worked, and your life is being affected to the point you can’t function…
And if you find that NOTHING else has worked, and your life is being affected to the point you can’t function…
Know This.
YOU ARE NOT WEAK TO TAKE MEDICATION.
In fact, you are stronger than ever, knowing that you must do what it takes to care for yourself and your family, and to be present in your life.
But remember that the work can’t stop with taking medication, whether natural or prescribed, because you have a lifetime of learning to do in order for growth to happen.
All in all…
in my little “experiment” I have realized that we all struggle.
Not a single one of us is free from the fun times of moods.
And only YOU (and the Lord) can know and find the path that is right for you.
Seek Him and He will carry you through.
It’s a promise.
© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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I agree one hundred percent. I agreed when you started lol…but even though you learned there is no mood cure…I know you learned a lot more in the process. 🙂
So are you Lexapro for life? I know I’m Paxil for life…or at least until these damn kids are grown up and I can try going off again. But until then I am clinging to GOD and MEDICATION and believing I’m not weak because of it, but intelligent for using what is available for the help I need.
xoxoxoxo
Aimee, you know I LOVE YOU!!! Not back on Lexapro, though my new saying is, “i’m just a week of anxiety away from going back.”
Right now, I’m continuing to use the tools I’ve been learning, taking my supplements, working out, and spending A LOT more time with the Lord throughout my day.
It’s been exhausting at times, staying one step ahead and always being aware….but I know it will all be worth it in the end…regardless of my decision in the end. =)
yes, you are stronger to recognize that maybe you do need a little help from some meds. you can do this! xoxox
I love my Lexapro, I don’t even think about taking it or not….when you have a job that we have like we have, I need it daily, and wine!
Love you girl!
It’s true. It makes me a little bit crazy when people denounce medication. I have had a severe anxiety disorder since I was about 5 years old. Anxiety attacks, panic attacks, etc. There have been periods in my life in which it’s been difficult to function due to debilitating anxiety. If it weren’t for the anti-anxiety pill I take every morning, I might still be in that place. I know that other things must be incorporated, but the medication helps me tremendously. And I am grateful for it.
i was on anxiety medication for years and struggled with “what people thought”. some people shunned me, others applauded me, but the truth is i needed it. i have a very strong faith but even our most irrational fears and thoughts can crush that. the medicine brought me to a place where i could really think and heal RATIONALLY. that was the biggest thing for me at the time.
thanks for this reminder!
Taking medication – if you need it – does NOT mean a person is weak! We are blessed to live in a time where there are meds to help us where we need it and I am a firm believer in taking meds as needed.
Amen, sister!
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