My BSF Mama Kat started a discussion on the Blog Frog where basically she invited anybody to post their undying love and/or questions for me.
So far all I have are questions, but that’s cool. We can start there.
Today’s questions come from Mama Kat, since she’s the one who started the discussion. If you haven’t had the chance to read her blog, then let me convince you that you absolutely must. Because if you love me, you will absolutely love her. She’s actually my sister parted at birth. We could even be twins. In fact, I wonder if we are. Anyway, she’s brilliant, honest, funny, and real…not to mention the girl has style and taste. What more could you ask for?
Now that you know her, let’s get back to me.
Here are her questions:
Do you want more kids?
Hayyyyyyyyelllllll to the Naaaaaaaw!!! {As Whitney Houston likes to say.} In other words, um no thanks. I love my kids. Adore them really, on most days. But, I am not what you call a mom that wants to have lots of kids. I am a whimp. My two can already feel like the world is spinning out of control on most days, and there aren’t enough Happy Pills on this planet to help me through adding in another one.
When did you start having issues with anxiety?
When Taylor turned two. Enough said?
Actually, no, that’s not true. I can’t blame him for everything. I have actually had some struggles with depression, given that I am the lucky girl to have it on both sides of my family. But when my dad suddenly died about 7 years ago, there was a lot of crazy Jerry Springer type drama that came up afterwards, and that is when I first began to feel the beginnings of anxiety. Although, at that time, I had no idea that it was anything more than just dealing with the grief of losing my dad.
Later, when Taylor was two, and my grandpa was dying of cancer, I became extremely overwhelmed with all that was going on. I had just come home from spending a week in my grandpas house watching him slowly die, that the moment I got the call that he had passed, all the strong woman type stuff I had held up, crashed to an extreme. And seconds later I had my first official panic attack. Which led to more anxiety, fear of fear, and so on….
The story goes on, but basically that’s how it all started.
What helps you?
More than anything, my faith in God is what has helped me get through the issues with anxiety. Because when I was in the depths of that time, the hope in knowing that He had me in the palm of His hands, and that He would never let me go, is what kept me going. Because of God, I never lost hope. That’s not to say that I didn’t question Him or feel angry with Him for allowing what I was going through, because I absolutely did do those things. Yet in the end, I believed there would be beauty from the pain, and I was going to make it through.
I also came across this amazing book called, The Anxiety Cure by Dr. Archibald Hart. It was in simple words, life changing. If you have issues with anxiety, I am telling you, you need to read this book.
Do you work outside of the home?
I do work part time as an event coordinator for a speed dating company called HurryDate. I also have one client that has hired me to be his personal matchmaker….think Millionaire Matchmaker, but for just one guy. And I’m without the dark hair and bangs. And my own million. But other than that, totally the same.
Favorite dinner?
Pizza, without a doubt. I could eat pizza every single day. And in fact, I think I have been eating pizza almost weekly since I was a little girl. It’s perfection in food really.
But, if someone was offering to make me dinner, seeing as that I don’t cook, then I would ask for chicken and dumplings, corn on the cob, french bread and apple pie.
That’s not asking a lot, is it?
A lot of us talk about drinking to remedy our crazy life with kids…how much do you really drink and are you drunk right now?
Wha, huh? Do you have a spy cam in my house? How did you know?!?
Actually, no I don’t drink….much. Never mind this bottle I keep stored in my bathroom. Rather, I choose to keep myself medicated with Lexapro and prayer. The two combined can be a powerful team. And if that doesn’t work, I add in a ton of carbs and chocolate cake, and then somehow life seems a little better.
Thanks Mama Kat! That was fun. I just adore talking about myself. Weird that I would have a blog then, huh?
Anyway, think you have questions you want answered? Leave them here. I’ll be going down the list and in each post I’ll be featuring the blogger who had the bravery to ask.
© 2009 “Le Musings of Moi”
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We may have been twins seperated at birth too! Probably not but similar answers. I will look for that book and chocolate does far more for me than a drink ever would! Mmm pizza and chicken and dumplings, you speak my food language!
I appreciate your sharing of the story about your anxiety. I suffer from anxiety and am interested in the ways people cope with their anzieties. 🙂
Okay…if I have a cute, single friend who LOVES GOD could you fix her up with your millionare guy thing.
And huh, speed dating? Ever do it yourself? Not while you were married, of course. right? But before then. Yea.
So no more kids. Did you like giving birth? I mean, did you do the epidural or a c-section or a tub birth? What’s your thing?
ha ha, great interview!! Two kids can be a handful–great answers 🙂
I had a panic attack shortly after my dad died. It was by far the most terrifying thing I have ever experienced. I thought I was dying. I was in my doctor’s office the very next day getting some “happy” pills.
I totally agree – 2 kids is enough to keep you very busy! Your kids are adorable by the way!
this is fun. it like getting to know you better.
Love the “Cribs” movie! And yep, never a problem to have any wine in any part of your house…bathroom, bedroom, closet…wherever! Have a great one! Cheers!
Good questions and very thorough answers. Thanks for sharing what you did. Matchmaker- really? Have you blogged about this? I’d be curious to read more!
I forgot everything you said once I saw the pizza and the cake.
The Whitney Houston shout out cracked me up…I knew the answer would be no, but I was SO not expecting that.
Love your answers. So honest. So candid. So raw….like my love for you.
what fun jobs. great answers. Love the pics of the kids. Thanks for your honesty. I have heard Archibald Hart interviews on Focus on the Family. I need to get the book.
I think you rock for being so candid. And chocolate cake cures a multitude of ills!
Have you heard about my Ben & Jerry’s Stressbusters Diet? I actually amended it the other day to the Bagels-Burrito-Pizza at the Beach Diet. Works wonders for my mood, if not for my figure!
I thought we were separated at birth. Do you mean Kathy is my sister too? Does this mean I can’t make out with her anymore? Darn…
What inspiring answers to some tough questions. I love your openness. It makes you very real. I appreciate it.
What a fun idea for a post. I loved reading all about this stuff, but mostly, I loved pretending that the pizza and cake could be mine someday. I’m right there with you on PIZZA as the best food and chocolate cake for the bad days.
That was fun! Thanks for sharing all your juicy details. 🙂