Archives for February 2011

we are the people of walmart.com

Sometimes when you pray for blogging material….you should be more specific.  
The following wasn’t quite what I had in mind….

The Tale of Yesterday
or 
Why There Was No Blog Post Yesterday:
Okay, so yes…we’ve established I shop at Walmart sometimes…
I used to think I was one of the classier ones there, just looking for a good deal.
But as it turns out, I guess I really do belong there.
As do my children for sure.
I should tell you before I begin, that Chloe is 2 and a half, and she has just figured that out.  
You know, that she’s two, and that maybe it’s time to act like it once in awhile.  
Only, MOST of the time she is happy, completely chill and totally easy peasy.  
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But then…oh my…it’s like she’ll suddenly remember it’s been awhile, 
(usually happens in Walmart….hmmm, maybe she’s trying to tell me something….), 
and then she’ll decide to do this:

{i like to call these videos…BIRTH CONTROL!}

{I only share that video, not to “expose” my children…but to let you know that your kids are in good company.}
Mmm hmmm, yup folks.  That’s my sweet daughter.  
And yes, they are surrounded by pillow pets borrowed from the shelves of Walmart, and yes I do put them back before we leave.
{judge not lest ye be judged!}
And if you think this is embarrassing, you should have seen how I looked.  Not cute guys, not cute.
After this particular taping (there were two total) we then ran into Taylors piano teacher.
{of course}
Who took one look at our getup and then promptly offered to take a picture of the three of us for www.peopleofwalmart.com.
{she’s actually a friend, so we were laughing…smile through the pain!}
This all happened of course just hours AFTER Chloe pooped a weeks worth in the bath AND followed that with another day of refusing to take a nap.
Going on two weeks of that ish.  
{hard to tell she’s tired from that video i know.}
And then, do me a favor.
Play that video over and over for, mmm, about 2 hours….and then you’ll get a taste of what it was like until she went to bed.
So that was fun.
After Jimmy got home (late, but who was looking at the clock?) I rocked back and forth in a dark room until I felt strong enough to come back out and help get them to bed.

To bed they went…and rather than wine or chocolate, I found comfort in the three tums I consumed because who knew two kids could cause heartburn**?!?

Later as I started to feel relaxed and calm and ready to get some good sleep after a dose of melatonin, I went to do my nightly check on the kids….
only to discover a major Pull Up FAIL in Taylor’s bed just 2 HOURS after he went to sleep.
{I’ll delete this post before he starts dating….maybe.}

You do NOT want to see that child woken up from a dead sleep, and apparently, you don’t want to ask him to put his pull up in the trash, because then you will basically see something like this:
{vintage taylor tantrum, but still gives you the idea of what went down tonight}
So, all in all, a day.
Not necessarily fun so much, but a day nonetheless.

Like I said, be careful what you wish for when asking God for some good blogging material.
Or…don’t shop at Walmart.
Or….maybe I should have never facebooked that everyone was asleep by 7:30 the night before.
My bad.

What a year of life lessons this is turning out to be….
=)

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**EDITED TO ADD** 

So I wrote this last night around midnight (about my day yesterday) while still working through the “heartburn.”
 That heartburn?
Turned out to be a gallbladder attack that landed me in the emergency room at 3 am.
Turns out I have MULTIPLE gall stones….and will likely need surgery.

But at least I’m home now, and today will be better, because the Vicodin promises so.  =)
And you know, God works in mysterious ways…
He must have known that I needed a break, and what better than a nice nap during surgery and a hospital stay that includes nurses and drugs?

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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my method after the madness

Madness.
That’s what I call Tracy Anderson’s 30 Day Method.
Result producing madness, but nevertheless, madness.
A lot of you have asked, would I go back and do it again knowing what I know now?
And the answer is, Absolutely!
But would I ever do it again, the full 30 days diet and all?
Um, absolutely NOT!
Who am I, if not truthful?
The only reason I say that is because I’ve realized and then forgot,
and then just recently realized again….
that total deprivation = failure.
For me.
When I was pregnant with Taylor, I developed gestational diabetes and had to endure 5 months of pregnancy eating barely any carbs and absolutely NO sugar.  Can you even imagine???  Your first pregnancy and you aren’t allowed to indulge in the slightest???
Torture is what it was.
And while all’s well that ends well, the diabetes went away with delivery and Taylor was born healthy and happy colic…still there was the whole cranky baby’s mama who had gone without carbs and sugar for far too long and it was time to self soothe.
Woah, the self soothing!
Hello fast food restaurants!!
Hello chocolate cake and pizza!!!
Hello Mikes Hard Lemonades!!!!
{okay, so that last one was more to numb the breast feeding pain* I was enduring at the time…but still, 4pm every day I indulged!}
*click that link if you ever endured breast feeding trauma, you won’t be sorry!
And to be honest…the same sort of thing happened after I ended the 30 Day Method….except instead of Mikes Hard Lemonade, I discovered an old love of Pinot Noir.
Because even with the choco chestnut pudding, the entire month of the diet, I couldn’t help but still feel slightly deprived.
And when all was said and done, while I had a few new recipes and a bunch of new taste buds for healthier things, I still had not in the slightest lost my desire for carbs and sugar.
Maybe it will be different for you.
Maybe IT WAS different for you….but for me, I don’t think any diet can cure those kind of genetics.
{my mom used to hide red licorice in drawers and you should have SEEN the amount of sweets my grandma hid in her basement freezer!}
I’m telling you, we get these “lindley arms” for a reason.
Genetics.
Anyway….all that to say….
I’ve been searching high (in the cupboards) and low (at little ceasars) trying to figure out where MY balance is.
How can I incorporate the things I love, yet find a way NOT to go overboard and still manage stay healthy and fit?
You always hear about the 80/20 rule, and I think that’s fair, and most likely doable.
And I know there are a ton of ways to make that work.
Two days on, one day off…five days on, two days off….all days on, with one cheat per day…
The trick is finding what works for you, and what will guarantee your success.
Before I went all “holiday eating” on my a$$ back in October, I had found some success in eating healthy Monday through Friday, and allowing my weekends to be free.
The problem became that I never defined “free.”
And free soon became, eat as much as you can of what you love and then spend the next week working all that off….
Eventually that caught up with me.
And my a$$.
So.
Here I sit, three weeks post 30 Day Method, trying to figure out what will work and trying to set healthy limits for myself.
While I’m content-ish with where I am physically, I would also be okay with a little more improvement…something a little closer to the boot camp success perhaps.
Although, I don’t think I can ever live up to and keep up with a size 2….
I’m pretty sure size 2 girls don’t eat pizza once a week…and if you do and you are, please don’t tell me.
My heart can’t take it.
So.
I’m still pondering…
but I think until things “smooth” out body wise, my best bet is to stick to healthy Sunday night through Friday Night (because that’s generally easy for me), and allow one free meal (ahem, pizza) and one cheat dessert (winchell’s you won’t ever lose my business!) on the weekends.
Once all feels right again in my clothes and I’m comfortable with my progress, I may go back to allowing two full free days…within moderation.

And I’ll need to find a good definition for moderation when that time comes.
{ideas?}


In addition to that, I’m super excited because I’m getting ready to begin a new supplement regimen (per the mood cure, which i just finished reading and HIGHLY recommend!), and from all that I’ve heard, it should provide some amazing results!
{Not so much in achieving the perfect body, cause that’s definitely not my goal…but more in finding a balance within my life as well as my cravings.}

And finally, to answer a few of the questions you guys had:

For my workouts, I just started Tracy Andersons Metamorphosis program today (omni) and am planning to do that in addition to a dance cardio dvd (in place of the omni cardio) 5-6 days a week.
And no, I still have yet to step on the scale.
I have no plans as to when that will change, but should it change, you will most definitely be the FIRST to know!

Anyway, enough about me…

What about you guys?
What have you found works for you in finding balance in health and nutrition?
Share with me all your secrets, trials, and tribulations…
© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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monday muse: braids

It’s been awhile since my beauty school days, and I had all but lost my creative touch when it came to styling my hair beyond straightening and curls…until awhile back when my sister turned me on to Tiffany’s hair and makeup tutorials.

 Instantly I became hooked, not just on the tutorials, but on her and her moms blog and website as well.
As a celeb hair and makeup team, they specialize in using and recommending ALL NATURAL products, which I have been trying to move more towards as well.
So far, with all they products they’ve shared that I’ve had a chance to try, I’ve not in the slightest been let down.
And it helps that they’re both insanely adorable.
And while normally I wouldn’t want to be friends with girls as gorgeous as they, because they’re so freakin’ sweet and personable, I just. can’t. help. but love them!!!
Might I swoon any more?
My word….
Anyway, I had to share my adoration because anytime I step out in public with their braids (like today with this fishtail do’.  whoops, totally forgot to take a picture of mine), compliments always abound. 
I’ve literally become a walking advertisement for their videos!  
Love that!
In keeping with the theme, monday muse, let us allow the natures knockout girls and their braids inspire us just a bit.
Oh sweet braids, how do I love thee?
Let me count thy ways…
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…and these are just the ones I’ve managed to snap pictures of.
Now go forth and be inspired…
© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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my latest and greatest favorite things

Finally!
My video of all my latest and greatest products.
I’m hoping that soon I’ll be able to make another one showing you my endless loves, the products that have stood the test of time, and still have a special place in my heart.
Sorry for the length….I swear I tried to make it short….but I’m on my old laptop which lacks editing tools and I wasn’t about to record all that again.
It’s all good stuff though, you’ll be fine.  =)
links to products:
Let me know if you guys try any of these and what you think!!!
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change your lives with 3×5’s

Lately I’ve been feeling as though there is no direction in my days…in my life…(in my eating, ack!)
And I’m not so much a big fan of that.
A few months ago, my sister Heather, directed me to this book she loved called Sidetracked Home Executives and I immediately ordered it and read it in a day.
I then ran to my nearest Staples and scooped up all the supplies and got to work changing my life with 3×5’s.
Jimmy and I worked out all the details on our Tahoe trip, spending a good coupla hours organizing our life…
and then we spent the week after that following it to the letter.
What a good week that was.
All the way back in December…..
But then, 
Christmas came….
The new year came….
The 30 Day Method came….
Then Valentines Day….
And with all that excitement, apparently I got a little sidetracked.
Must be the book for me, ya?
Anyway…now that things seem to have settled, I’m realizing that I do much better when there is some sort of method to my life.
I do better with routine, somewhat, and I need a little more than intention so that my days are purposeful.
After all, that was my main goal for 2011.
To be more intentional and purposeful in my life, in my walk with God, and in parenting and marriage.
{not too lofty at all…right?}
So, here I am back to the Life Box and getting things in order and set up for success.
{which includes making a few tweaks to a couple of book suggestions that just didn’t work for me.}

tip: don’t be afraid to make changes to other peoples advice and suggestions, especially if those changes are more likely to guarantee your success.
As Tim Gunn likes to say, “Make it work!”  snap, snap, snap.

If you’re a bit like me, in that you have GREAT intentions to do this or do that and yet another day slips by without even a hint of progress…you should absolutely look into this book and do it with me.
Okay, here’s what I’ve done so far:
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~ got my cute box, colored index cards & dividers, then organized them accordingly in said cute box.

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~ sat down with Jimmy and created our list of chores and tasks and events that we need reminders to accomplish….then organized those tasks according to day or dates.
{this is all laid out in the book}

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~ set up a home for the box and index cards where I am constantly reminded and encouraged to accomplish my days goals.
{I even made cards with pictures for Taylor, and set up a place for them in his room….it’s a family thing!}
Still to do:
~ make index cards for birthdays
~ make index cards for friends numbers and addresses {have begun this a little}
~ create a few more index cards for new tasks and events that I didn’t think of in the beginning….such as: clean out car once a week, write in the kids journals, do character workbooks with Taylor, piano practice, and shredding & filing…

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So, it’s a bit daunting in the beginning, I won’t lie.
But it feels AMAZING to be intentional and purposeful, and most of all organized.
No more getting sidetracked.
No more days without direction.
Today is the day.
Okay, so actually tomorrow…
But ONLY because I’m getting it all set back up today.
Totally not going to get sidetracked anymore…

Remind me of that, okay?

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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reeboks easytones ~ mega deal

I may be a sucker for a scam, but still, I love my EasyTones.  
{and I didn’t get paid a dime to say so!}
Not only are they super cute, but I find they make me focus on my balance during my mat workouts, which can only do good things for my core.
Anyway, I just discovered an amazing deal for them, where normally they sell for $99, on 6pm.com they are now $39.95!
Kinda wishin’ I had scored them for that price.
If you’ve been wondering about them, this would be the deal to test them out!
© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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love is in the air

Last night, after what felt like an insanely long weekend, I glanced up in the sky and saw this amazing sight:
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It appeared to be, at least to me, a once broken heart that piece by piece God was putting back together.
Immediately my heart and lips whispered…
“Thank you Jesus.”
Today there is love in the air…
regardless whether you’re in love or not.
I hope you see this heart as a reminder, that you are indeed, loved…
by Him.
by me.
Happy Valentines Day.
{i also wanted to extend a heartfelt thank you to all that took a moment to email me or leave loving and encouraging comments on my last blog.  as i told another friend…sometimes i wish i didn’t continue to have life lessons to learn….but at least God has given me incredible friends to carry me through them when i do.  i am TRULY thankful for each and every one of you.}
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hate on me hater…’cause I’m gonna do me

The other day it came to my attention that there was a website with a specific link dedicated to hatin’ on me.
What started as a specific post to make fun of my home and design choices….ended up being a personal attack on not only myself…but my husband and my kids.
Oh no they di’int.
{not giving the link, they don’t deserve the traffic…although i should thank them for sending me some.}
Okay, so to be honest, I totally get that.  
I mean, I don’t get wasting time bashing someone and their family, but I get that my home design style isn’t for everyone.  
I get it, because, my word!, come a couple months, it may not even be for me anymore!!!
{how happy they will be when that day comes….}
But what really got me was when the comments went from picking on my home to attacking me, my kids, and my husband personally.  
That is just purely low and mean, and really…
heartless. 
{come here sad people, tell me, who hurt you to make you this way?}
While I sat there reading comment after spiteful comment, I began to feel my body go numb.
And before I knew what was happening, I couldn’t seem to stop the tears that were determined to spill down my face.
My heart literally ached.  
I knew cutting comments from loved ones hurt, but I had no idea the sting from strangers quite like this.
I don’t know these people, they certainly don’t know me, so I shouldn’t have spent even a moment wasted on them.
But, waste I did, because I’m human…
one with, apparently, very thin skin.
But after a bit of time & a TON of support from my family and friends…not to mention the hilarious and touching comments from my facebook crew, I began to feel somewhat better and was able to begin processing through the situation with a bit more clarity.
{and wine….and chocolate cake…and glee…and the office.  cheap therapy}
Of course my initial reaction was to shut it all down.  Close up shop, stop sharing my life and heart, and instead stay close to the ones I love and trust.
But who wins then?
My sweet friend, Gillian, sent me a text later in the night that said:
…on your blog you wrote that you didn’t care if you never made any money for what you wrote, you just wanted to make a difference.  I want you to know that you have made a difference in MY life…
And while really SHE’S the amazing one in our friendship, it meant a lot that she took a sec to remind me of my purpose here, and why I initially and continue to make my life an open book.
It’s NOT to be loved by all.
It’s not in hopes of becoming famous, or to be known, or even to make money.

It’s simply to share my journey in hopes that someone, even just one person, doesn’t feel so alone in theirs.
I don’t pretend to know it all.
I don’t think I’m the best at anything.
And I definitely don’t take myself too seriously.
{unless, of course, i’m being serious.}
It bums me out that there are people like that out there….
and it sucks that this little tiny episode of mine is barely the tip of the iceberg when it comes to what other people have encountered and been through.
But, I won’t let them win.
I won’t let them steal my intentions or my heart or my love for writing… 
and I definitely won’t give them the satisfaction of caring any longer.
In the words of jill scott…
hate on me hater
now or later…
cause i’m gonna do me.
Oh girl.
Sing it girl.
mmm mmm mmmm.
snap.
snap.
snap.
snap.
Now, let’s move on.

ps
for anyone else who has something to say about the grammatical error of the name of my blog…
you should know that i don’t speak french,
and I came up with the name after i took an ambien…
and it really did seem like a great idea at the time!
2 years later it’s a little too late to change it.

now really….
let’s move on!

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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i wanna know…your favorite things

You know as much as I love to share the things I love with you guys…
sometimes I just want to know what it is EVERYONE else is ob. sessed with.
So.
It’s time to stop being so silent.
There are things I want to know, and you know them, so tell me!!!
Kinda like when you find a certain something and you want to call all girlfriends to tell them to go get it now?!?

I’m that girlfriend.

Some examples:
magazines, books, food, restaurants, drinks, makeup, skin care, vitamins, websites, blogs…(besides mine, duh)….paint colors (need ideas!), etsy shops or finds…
You name it, if YOU LOVE IT, I want to know about it!!!
See below where it says, Leave a Comment?
It’s crazy, I know, but that part is FOR YOU!
You get your own little space to say whatever it is you LOVE.
It’s like your own little blog space.
Amazeballs, right?
Usually I don’t pressure for comments, I’m not one for begging or making people do something I generally don’t do a lot of myself…
But this once, I am making demands.
And in return, I’m getting together my own list (and making a video!) on all the things I am loving and am currently obsessed with as well.
Give and take guys, it’s all about give and take.
So, tell me….
What are your favorite things?
© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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far from recovered yet absolutely reformed

I absolutely would not be complete without my method of journaling*.
What started as a log of my fights with my sister in 3rd grade, has now transformed into a method of therapy* for me even when I don’t even intend it to be.
I’ll just get this bug that I have to write, honestly and transparently, and I must. do. it. now.
Then I’ll sit and without any premeditation, suddenly it all spills forth*.
My heart writes what my mind can’t speak, and once it’s poured onto paper, sometimes with tears flowing… I’ll set down my pen and breath a deep sigh of relief.
Because suddenly I’ll understand.
Maybe that is true intimacy with God, maybe it’s His way of speaking through me….
but when I have those moments with my journal, it’s a moment treasured and sacred.
Recently, I had a night like that….after months of having not written.
It was shortly after I finished the 30 Day Method, and I had been feeling…unsteady.
I went to my journal, ready for some therapy.
And not 30 minutes later, I felt secure.
Secure in my journey, secure in the lessons, secure in my God.
I had an unbelievable sense of peace.
Reading back over it a couple days ago, I realized that I needed to share it with you guys.
Though those words held close to my heart and soul, were not meant simply for me.
I understand that my struggles are not mine alone.
And we were never meant to walk this road alone.
*{links to other journal entries of mine i’ve shared}
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I feel as though God has truly been at work in me…molding me and bringing me through some awful yuk on the inside.  
And while I know that I am far from recovered,” especially in light of my body issues….I know in my heart that He has absolutely reformed me.
It’s almost as though I’m coming out of a dark tunnel and I can see the sun ahead and I can see that there is, in fact, an end.  
Then when I look back and see all the darkness that surrounded me and how far back that darkness extends….I can’t help but feel incredibly broken and sad for the girl who’s endured it all.
Yes, I know I am that girl, and that she is still in there somewhere…
and all it could take is one step back, one misstep away from Him, and she’d be back.
But that’s what is different, I won’t ever go back there.
I just can’t.
My life is intended for more.
I understand now and grasp that I will not find lasting happiness in a flat stomach, I will not change lives by being what the glossy pages of magazines say is “perfectly thin.”
I will not fulfill my life’s purpose in striving for physical perfection.
I wasted too many years.
I cried WAY too many tears.
I lost out on so many moments because I’d lost my focus.
It’s all about balance now, finding my balance, which is different than hers or theirs.
I went from one extreme to the next and now I feel my pendulum is swinging towards home.
My home.  
My comfortable place to be.
It feels good and it feels right.
And even though those times were rough and dark and sad, I know God allowed it and I KNOW He will bring beauty from my pain.
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{words that feed my soul}

I pray that from my pain, I can bring beauty into the lives of others.
Keeping them from this.
Holding them through this.

And if not for anyone else, at the very least, for my sweet Chloegirl.
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It just overwhelms me to see God so incredibly faithful to me.
To see He HAS been working when I honestly believed He wasn’t there, believing He’d just had enough.
But, maybe I believed that because I was the one who, in fact, wasn’t being faithful.
But still…
there He remained.
Loving.  Patient.  Forgiving.
And doing all He could while I did my best to catch up.
So, here I am Lord.
Doing my best.
And as I rely on His truths and on HIS STRENGTH…
I feel more apt to let go of my own self imposed strongholds.
He’s working on me.
I know it.
I feel it.
I welcome it.
And I love it.

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Regardless of what it is you struggle with..
whether you think He understands it or not…
I hope you know…
you were NEVER meant to walk it alone.

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
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