dont be alarmed

{via weheartit.com…the family that prays together, stays together.}

It’s like God’s trying to teach us patience or something.

Huh.

Because all this time, I thought that’s what having kids was for….

And so right now, we are waiting.

And praying.

And reading and studying His word for guidance and clarity.

We have gifts He has given us.

So what are we to do with them?

Where do we go from here?

We wonder if God is calling us to another country.

For a time?

For a trip?

For numerous trips?

Is there an outreach or ministry we are supposed to get involved in?

Do we adopt?

Do we foster again?

And so we wait.

And in the meantime we are learning patience and growing in our faith.

It’s an incredibly sweet time for us.

I literally can’t get enough of Him.

I constantly want to be reading my Bible, listening to messages, praying, and simply being challenged.

I want to be about Him.

In all things I do.

I want EVERYTHING I do to point to Him.

I used to want the attention.

Of course, I absolutely wanted Him to be shown, but I also wanted a little of the glory….

He’s breaking me of that.

So that post?

It’s wasn’t so much a declaration of something GRANDE we are about to do.

It was simply sharing my hearts desire.

A simple message of where I’ve been, where I am, and where I want to be.

It’s a new phase of my relationship with Him. 

I feel incredible peace and joy and excitement.

My middle child syndrome of “notice me, make it about me….” is being challenged.

It’s still there.

A little.

I mean, I am still human.

But, I can look back at the road I’ve walked, sometimes crawled along barely surviving, and I see that the entire time, He has been stripping me and building me back up….

And when I understand that, I realize I wouldn’t trade a moment of the pain.
I wouldn’t give up a second of the despair.

This new stage?

Life is still incredibly hard….and I anticipate it getting even tougher at times.

The difference?

There is an inner peace, an indescribable joy that doesn’t make sense, an unbelievable love for the Lord who laid it all down for me.

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I love what Taylor said the other night to Jimmy as he was tucking him into bed….
Taylor was telling him about his devotion that night and how it was about sharing what we have with people who may not have much.

And then he closed his eyes and prayed before the Lord with the heart that I adore….
“Dear Jesus….I just pray that one day we can move to another country to help poor people.”

And then later he asked when we could go and help feed the homeless again.

We want to hurry up and go and do and serve….and we do in the ways we can where He has us now.

© 2012 “Le Musings of Moi”