You guys.
YOU GUYS!!!
You have no idea, just no idea how God uses you guys to LIFT me up and BLESS me.
I didn’t actually write about my week last week, because I needed to process my emotions.
And woah, there was sort of a whole lot of them.
I know, who’s suprised by that, show of hands?
That’s right, nobody.
Same show, different day.
BUT….
Oh my word.
Even though I was feeling, and dealing, and processing stuff in my own little world….somehow some of you just knew.
God’s kind of amazing like that.
He tells my secrets to those of you who get it just at the moment when he knows they need to be shared.
And without fail, every single day there was an unexpected email or comment or message that was JUST what I needed for that day.
A story.
A testimony.
A scripture.
A devotion.
A confession.
Promise of prayers…..
Whatever it was, I hope you know it was a HUG FROM GOD right when I needed it.
A testimony.
A scripture.
A devotion.
A confession.
Promise of prayers…..
Whatever it was, I hope you know it was a HUG FROM GOD right when I needed it.
I LOVE THAT!!!!
You thank me for being open and for saying the things you are afraid to let out….
and I know it’s scary.
It once was for me too.
Sometimes it still is.
I wonder what people think.
{I wonder and I care…which sometimes sucks.}
Am I too needy?
Too sensitive
Too emotional?
Too “a whole lotta….”
You know what I mean.
{the stuff i’ve been called my whole life….and not always in an uplifting way.}
But this is where I have to let it all out.
I have to share.
God’s made that much clear to me….
I have to share.
God’s made that much clear to me….
And I will continue to share because of YOU.
Because of your emails, because of your comments, because of YOUR bravery to share with me.
Because I know that by exposing our lives (good, bad, and ugly) and by just being REAL about it….hopefully more of us will feel less alone.
Because I know that by exposing our lives (good, bad, and ugly) and by just being REAL about it….hopefully more of us will feel less alone.
We will still all have our issues…duh.
We had parents….
And that’s what happens when you have parents.
But now we have each other….living life and being honest and getting through our issues together.
And isn’t it better when you have a hand to hold through it all?
So, the truth is…last week sucked.
Well not all of it, but some of it.
And then I realized (because an incredible friend pointed it out to me)….well of course it’s hard sometimes….
I’ve been praying that God would use me.
I’ve been praying that I would have a heart more like His.
And my friend pointed out, that when you ask for those things in prayer to be prepared….
because God will give us the desires of our hearts.
And sometimes it’s NOT like what we imagine.
God created me this way.
Deep feeling, emotional, empathic, emotional (it deserves to be said twice), sensitive, and yes…
“a whole lotta….”
But, in all that….there is still less of Him and more of me.
So, He sets out to help me grow.
And in order to grow and to be strong, I believe there is an amount of suffering.
{the story of the butterfly}
And in order to grow and to be strong, I believe there is an amount of suffering.
{the story of the butterfly}
And how amazing that He thinks enough of me to allow me to go through that process???
The same goes for you.
For each of you that emailed, that have commented, or just lurk (love you lurkers too!)…
or for any of you feeling lost and hurt and alone and confused….
Please know….
YOU ARE BEING REFINED into something BEAUTIFUL.
WE ARE!!!!
TOGETHER!!!
And we have this little place that is safe.
You can share, or not share….but you can always come here and know you are loved and respected and understood.
You are not alone in ANY of this.
AND?
If you email me AFTER 10 in the morning, I might even be able to make you laugh at something you didn’t think you’d ever find the humor in.
Before 10?
I’ll just cry with you.
I’ll just cry with you.
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I had to share all this with you today….because it’s Good Friday.
The day Jesus suffered and died for us.
Jesus suffered.
Oh my word, did he ever….
And through His suffering He understood and felt and TOOK ON every pain we would ever feel.
He suffered more than you and I will ever know.
And He did it because He loved each and every one of us.
If anyone understands your heart, it’s Him.
I believe He died AND rose again…
And He did it to give us hope…
And He did it to give us hope…
to give us eternal life.
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Happy Easter…
xoxo
© 2012 “Le Musings of Moi”
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What a blessing you are to myself and everyone else! God has used you in such an amazing way. Beautiful, BEAUTIFUL post. And thank you for reminding me its Good Friday. How terrible am I?? Easter gets so much focus, but we can never forget what Jesus did for us on this day.