i am blank because….

I am weird because…
~i like to break out in song and dance out of nowhere
~mostly i like to sing like jewel. {and i swear i sound JUST like her, ask jimmy}
~i don’t like to get in the pool or ocean, especially if it means getting my face or hair wet
~i’m obsessed with the duggars
~i would rather thrift shop and fill my closet with used clothes, than spend a lot of money on designer items
~i prefer to be small chested
~i get all my energy and happiness at night.  it’s then that it makes the most sense to clean, have deep meaningful talks, or organize.  even better if it’s all of the above.

I am a bad friend because…
~ i take a while to call back, because i don’t LOVE to talk on the phone.  unless i’m driving.
~when i’m struggling, sometimes i pull away because i fear i’ll become too much of a burden.
~i don’t offer to babysit their kids much.
~i don’t see them nearly as often as i want.

I am a good friend because…
~i get it.
~i text back, and often….even if they never reply, i just KEEP on textin’….
~i care and love them all so deeply with every ounce of my heart and soul, they are my family
~when they hurt, i feel it too.  when they are in a place of joy and happiness, it builds up my own.
~i always fight to make it better, stronger and more meaningful
~i ask for forgiveness.
~i always forgive.
~i am always always always there when they need me.  always.

I am sad because…
~i’m afraid i’m not going to make an impact during my lifetime 
~i miss having parents
~my sisters are too far away
~i feel like i’ll never be completely free from anxiety, despite all that i continue to do to fight it
~so many people I care about are hurting and there is nothing that i can do

I am happy because…
~i have an amazing life, friends, church, and family
~i have the best group of girls in my youth group.  and when i am with them, i feel it is exactly where i am supposed to be.
~my kids are happy and carefree and they love Jesus
~my husband is incredible and supportive and he also loves Jesus
~i found a dog.  and i adore her.  she completes….our family.
~we just bought the sodastream, and this means i’m done with diet coke.
~i KNOW that despite what i feel or am going through i am still being carried in God’s hands

I am excited for…
~2012, a new year with new possibilities
~my first ever 7 day vacation without my husband or kids, which also means 7 days and/or nights of sleep.
~a new blog project that i’m hoping will be absolutely AMAZEBALLS.  


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