ive lost that lovin’ feeling, days 21 & 22

It’s the weekend.
And let me tell you, the weekends are the WORST for me.  
And I think I have short timers syndrome.
You know when you give your two weeks notice at a job, and then feel like slacking because you’re almost done anyways?
That’s me.
I feel like slacking.
I HAVEN’T, but I FEEL like it.
I have ALL kinds of justifications running through my mind…..and during the week it’s no problem to shoo those away.  
During the weekend?
I need bolted doors.
I’m not a fan of beans either, and most of my day consists of them.
So that’s not helping in the slightest.
Not to mention I have the looming “cleanse” coming up, and I’m still on the fence as to what to do about that.
Having tried each recipe once before and gagging into the first bite of most, I wonder how I’ll make it through 5 days.
But, I can’t help but wonder if my taste buds have changed enough to be able to tolerate it now.
And then I wonder if I NEED to do the cleanse, being that I’m in my pants now.
{even though my front butt has a LONG way to go…not even sure Tracy can solve that ab separation problem….might have to save up for surgery}  
I mean, maybe I only need a 25 day boot camp, and Tracy just doesn’t know because she doesn’t know me and my body.
Maybe she’d actually tell me to eat in moderation and keep up with the workouts then continue to be amazed.
Maybe…..
But then there’s the whole “obeying ALL of Tracy’s 30 Day Method RULES” goal that I set in the beginning, and how un-proud would mama tracy be if I failed now?
Although, is it really failing if I make it 25 days?
And what if I do the 30 full days of the workout, but not the full 30 of the diet?
Or what if I skip the cleanse but do the first week’s menu again instead?
Would everyone be so bummed by me?
Would I be weak?
{would I be classified as a major DRAMA queen right about now?!?}
Do you see this???
Are you seeing the thought torture I am going through?
Talk me through this.  I need you guys and your wisdom now. =)
{don’t be afraid of the comment section, this is the time to USE it!}
Now, let’s get this update out of the way….
Food:
It’s fine.  Most of it anyway.  Still NO CHEATING and no going off the menu!  21 days clean. 
And while I’m tired of having to eat what I’m told, surprisingly I’m not craving junk food.  
I just miss eating what I “feel” like eating.
ya know?
I know, I’ll work it out in therapy. 
Workout:
Started the LAST sequence yesterday (30 reps of everything, and twice through arms) and oh ma word!!!
It was torture and amazing all at once.
I couldn’t believe how insanely hard it was after having worked out out for 21 days straight!  
Amazingly, I was energized for 40 minutes of the 2008 Cardio afterwards, which I LOVE!  
I could never get sick of that video.
Then this morning I realized what Tracy meant when she said this would be the sequence that would BOLT all your muscles together.
I literally felt BOLTED!
While the diet part is still a struggle for me, showing up and doing the workouts is something I love and never dread.  I am addicted to that kind of a challenge, and I love the pain.
Tracy is right, you start to crave it a bit.
Ya ya ya, Tracy is right.

Also, I started my own facebook page dedicated simply for the 30 Day Method boot camp updates and progress….where I’ll be posting result pictures that all the world doesn’t need to see on le blog.

here’s a glimpse of today’s results:

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Be back tomorrow with some clarity, I hope!
Off to bolt those muscles!!!

{just a passing thought…do we tend to be harder on ourselves when we’re more in shape than when we’re softer and rounder?  i feel like I’m scrutinizing WAY more than a few months ago….i can only imagine what i’d be doing if i was on the scale!}
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Comments

  1. I say that if you have reached your personal goals you can take the 25 days of diet and start to dabble with incorporating a new way of eating for the last 5. I research a lot about fitness and exercise, and lots of years in training experience. Both traditional exercise, and hoisting my butt 30 ft in the air 😉 I’m not a certified expert but my recommendations are:

    After the 30 is up I would definitely take a few days for your body to rest. Most of body recovery and muscle strength is gained while at rest. Exercise creates little tears in the muscle and our body repairs and make the muscle stronger while at rest. Lots of water, stretching, and booking a massage would also be excellent ways to help the body recover from bootcamp (and I think you deserve a massage). Your body will also need a fair amount of protein (0.8g-1g per pound of bodyweight) with so much working out. My advice is to listen to your body and meet it’s needs.
    You are doing an amazing job at staying away from the scale and not letting it determine your day. Allow your exercise and clean eating be something that makes your life better, not more stressful. For me a good sweaty workout is like Prozac, keeps me from freaking out at every little thing and makes me feel sane about stuff I can’t change. And kickboxing is better than a good cry for me 😉
    <3 Jennie

  2. Congratulations on sticking with the program, no cheats – you’re my hero!

    Last 5 days – You should be so proud of your work and dedication to the program. I think that Tracy would agree that you know your body, you know your limitations and what works best for you. If you feel that the cleanse is “not happenin” – I suggest making the last 5 days your reward days.

    Create your own daily menu from all of your favorite TAM approved meals. You will still be using and following her method, just without the cleanse portion. Plus, it will be like a farewell to the program – your last TAM meals of a sort!

    Regardless, awesome job and keep it up!

  3. I think you have busted your arse the last 22 days and you should feel really really really proud of yourself. You can finish off how you think you need to. You must eat, so if the cleanse foods aren’t going to go down, there really is no choice. I would select your favs from the month and go with that. Especially since you are not trying to drop weight at this point. Your dedication is amazing but I think Tracy would agree that your health is THE most important so you must find a way to eat my dear.
    Good luck I can’t wait to hear how it goes!
    Ally