This day is always bittersweet for me.
Bitter, being that I lost my dad 8 years ago…He passed away suddenly from a heart attack, and what breaks my heart is that I never got to say goodbye.
I never got one last chance to tell him how much I loved and adored him, and how much he had touched and made a difference in my life.
I know that he’s with the Lord, and he’s more at peace now then he ever was…but sometimes I just wish…especially on days like today, that I could have him here with me. Just so I could tell him how amazing he was. That despite his mistakes, despite his faults and failures…regardless of all the ways he may have felt he failed me…I loved him. Purely, unconditionally, wholly with my entire heart and being.
He believed in me. He hoped for me. He trusted me. He supported me. He understood me. He taught me about forgiveness and hope, he showed me by example to never stop trying to be better. His ability to see potential in not only me, but in everyone who crossed his path….was an incredible gift. One I hope that I have been able to carry on.
I miss him incredibly. I long for one more moment. One more hug. One more time of hearing him call me “sweetie.”
But that’s where the sweet lies in this day.
My husband.
While I may not have my own dad to celebrate, I am so incredibly blessed to see the same love my dad had for me…Jimmy has for our own babies.
He loves them with his whole heart and soul. He gets down on the floor and plays with them. He takes his time to explain things in a way that they know he listens and cares. They watch him and adore him, just the way I had done with my dad.
I watch their relationship and my soul is lifted…and it comforts me because I know that they will be okay no matter what.
There is just something so incredibly special and healing about a fathers love.
You have no idea the difference you made,
or the difference you are making.
I love you Dad…
I adore you Jimmy…
Happy Fathers Day.
© 2010 “Le Musings of Moi”
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My heart goes out to you! I know exactly how you feel!
Sharon
Sorry it’s such a hard day for you Summer… No one should have to lose their dad like that. So glad your hubby is such an amazing dad though!
HAppy Fathers Day to our Angel Daddys!
I’m so glad you found someone who can love your kids like your dad loved you. That’s so sweet. Your kids must love him to death! I love the pictures.
Powerful post and nice tribute to your dad… I hope you enjoyed the day with your family 🙂
What a beautiful tribute, glad your hubby is such a wonderful father! Darling picture too!
Such a lovely post. I miss my dad too, but am so happy to have a close family that I can rely on when I am in need.
awww!! SO CUTE!!
Awww…Summer….I am so sorry for your loss. I worry about the day I will lose one of my parent’s!
This was so heartwarming too! Love that you have a great husband and father to your children! It’s nice to see men take a active role with their children. I too feel that lucky! Yah for our men!!!!!