I wrote this about a month ago and just had it saved as a draft.
I finally decided to post it, even though I’m no longer in this place,
mostly because I am sure there is someone who can relate!
I’m not so much a fan of those life moments that seem to occur only so as to give you insight into the ugly truth about yourself.
I’m in one of those moments,
and it doesn’t feel so good.
I know what the “right” thing to feel is.
I know what the “admirable” thing to do is.
But I am not in that place.
I am not wanting to do what’s right.
I want to instead do what feels good,
what is most comfortable and ideal for me.
I don’t want to think about anybody else for once.
I don’t want to think of what’s best or what’s ahead.
Because I can’t help but remember what was.
It was comfortable.
It was my ideal.
And so I stand here,
stomping my feet,
with my hands on my hips,
and tears in my eyes…
Because this is not the way it was supposed to be.
This was NOT my plan.
I’m not proud.
But I’m not perfect.
And when I’m done pouting,
I’ll pick myself up…
and remember…
that what really matters most,
is beyond me.
I’ll remember that later.
Cause right now?
I’m busy pouting.
© 2010 “Le Musings of Moi”
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Aw girl, I’m so sorry! I hope things turn around quickly.
Ditto – that is all I can really think to say….and great post as always!
I love the pouting picture…it’s awfully sweet. But as for the feelings…well, I hope you soon find the place where you’re happier.
i definitely know we all have our pouty moments…but glad to hear you’ve pulled out of yours…even when we are entitled to them every now and then!!!
I do like this, and I can relate because I kinda feel this way today! Thank you for pulling this out of the depths of the drafts and sharing it!
goodness knows i’ve had plenty of those days!!
if only i were as cute as that little girl when i was in a really b*tchy mood!!
Beautifully written – and I’ve SO been there! ((HUGZ!!))
Pout away. A girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.
I think we all have those…I wanna be selfish for just a minute times!