I’m sorry.
I got a little lost.
So often along my way, I have been sidetracked. It’s just that I would see something glittery, something shiny, something I thought I wanted, needed, had to have.
They told me I had to have it, and I believed.
But, all it took was just a moment away. To just exist. To just be. To finally see.
What would I give up for more of those moments?
I realized, I would give up so much.
The numbers (in all the ways they exist to me), the recognition, the “American Dream,” the wants and the desires. Or better put….all that I have been trained to think determines success.
But, what is most important to me is what I found in three days. Contentment. Laughter. Calm. Joy. Hope. Connection. Security. Freedom. In all of that…I found my truth.
It’s not about the numbers. It’s not what I drive. Or what I wear. Or where I go. Or who I know. It’s not even about where I live or what I live in.
They told me I should be this and achieve this, and I believed.
I’m sorry.
I got a little lost. It happens easily. Those shiny things, they can distract me when I’m not paying attention.
I desire to live in the now. To be content with this. Not to ever lose hope, but to feel at peace. To enjoy this moment. This place in which we are. And live. And laugh. And choose something that I haven’t wholeheartedly chosen up until now.
I never want to be a slave to things. To feel stress and the discomfort because of what I should have or where I should be.
I have missed too much being in that place.
You gave me that weekend to see. And for more of that, for more of those moments, I will do my best to remember this. To hold tight to what has been given to me.
And if I get distracted again by the bright and shiny (because I know me, I will), please gently nudge me back in step with my truth.
© 2009 “Le Musings of Moi”
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To feel at peace ~ I liked that a lot!!!
>>> Rebecca Rose
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it’s so great when we get reminded of what’s truly important. it’s like a whole new beginning, we get to enjoy it all over again. <3
So true. Don’t we all need that little nudge every now and then? I know I do.
oh summer… it is SO easy to get distracted by things. this was beautiful.
inspiring 😉
It’s so easy to fall into that trap of – you need to buy this or you won’t be happy – so very easy when it’s all over the tv and in front of us with people who like to gloat and compare. It’s a sad existence, one that will never have room for joy and contentment.
We’ll remind you and you remind us. Deal!
Things in life can be so distracting. It’s easy to get things out of perspective. Life is a consant checks and balances. At least you have something to anchor you so that you don’t drift too far!
Summer,
This was beautiful. I too get lost in the way of things but that is not what its about. Sometimes there are gentle reminders and then there are not so gentle ones. I have been recently reminded that it really is all about the people that we love in a not so gentle way.
Great post, you totally spoke to my soul.
Beautiful Summer! I pray you can keep that peace too.
Soooo true! Thanks for the reminder. laurie
i know what you mean. that moment when you finally grasp it but you also know that you could forget so easily! becasue for some reasons these are th things you slowly put in the back of your head and your heart and you lose focus.
maybe it sounds silly but that’s one of the reasons i got most of my tattoos. post it notes i can’t miss or erase.
xxx
such truth….such beautiful beautiful truth…
Ahh, this is so refreshingly Summer. I love this post. I hope that you can stay in this wonderful place!
What a wonderful post! Love it.
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Beautiful posting!
Happy SITSmas from Cairo!
I should hang this post on my bathroom mirror. I lose sight of what’s important so much of the time…as we have discussed. Have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS! I love you, sweets.
This is wonderful and I think exactly what I needed to read today.
I hope you have a wonderful Christmas! (Or whichever holiday of your choosing!)
xx
Shiny stuff is fun, but you’re right. It’s so fleeting.
Hope you had a great Christmas!
It’s good to remember this, especially right before embarking upon a new year.