‘Fears simply reveal where we have yet to grow. And each time we fight and win, that fear turns to courage.’ mike quinn
Fears are never easy to live with. They’re even harder to face. And overcoming them takes courage in itself.
I’ve never been a fearful person. I loved change, loved the unknown, loved adventures. I was fearless, young, unafraid. And so, ten years ago, I bravely packed my car and left for California, without a plan. No friends, no job, no life. Yet, I knew it was to be my home. I had no fear.
As the years moved forward, taking my maturity with it, I began to learn. Life began to happen. Pain multiplied. It became something real, not just something internal I chose to torture myself with. It was tangible. It was there. There became something to lose.
I fell in love. With a man, with my babies, with my life. I now had something, someones, to lose.
And when life began to happen to me, seeing that it reached out beyond me, I found fear.
Life brought me anxiety. Anxiety brought me fear.
Yet I vowed. I would not be held captive. I would fight. For me, for my loves.
I find many things that remind me of that time. That time of life was not kind. And when I face them, I want to run. I want to hide, because what if? What if I don’t conquer? What if I lose? What if, once again, it is not just me who will hurt?
Fears simply reveal where we have yet to grow. And each time we fight and win, that fear turns to courage.
And then I remember that truth. I must press forward, face the fear, and walk away armored with growth and courage.
Slowly, I feel the freedom. Hesitantly I face the reminders. There remains just one more. In time, in short time, I will be face to face with the final hurdle. But I won’t run. I won’t hide. I won’t allow in that fear that wants to grip my thoughts and mind.
For again, I now have something to lose. But even more to gain.
My loves. Because from me, they will learn. From me, they will grow.
As long as I continue to face the fear.
© 2009 “Le Musings of Moi”
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Beautiful Summer, simply beautiful.
This is a wonderful post Summer. We all face those fears, but I know I don’t face them nearly as courageously as you do (see my last post for an example)!
Thanks for sharing this, and way to look fear in the face!
You are so beautiful! I’m so happy to have you as a friend 🙂 I have much to learn from you!
there is no other way to deal with fear than to face it.
You’re a wonderful writer. And everything you write is so beautiful and true.
This is beautiful!!! I’m trying to move past some fears now… I needed to read this today. Thank you!
also, what you fear shows what you value 🙂
Awesome post Summer!
You’re so inspiring!
Great post, Summer. I’m a very fearful person… I have always been scared and I’ve never liked changed too much, and I worry all the time about everything. Especially since now being a mom of two, that worry if fear seems to be constant, and I do not think it will ever, ever go away…
You go girl! Amazing. I wish I had less fear. Fear of change…
Yep. So many of our anxieties are really not well-founded. And some that are, what does being all tied up in knots do to help anyway? Life is too short not to live it! Now if only I can remember that next time I start worrying about something …
hmmm great words hun…
This was amazing. You are so gifted and I love reading your post!