So, today I cried.
I was watching Taylor ride his Razor around the building with his new neighborhood friends, and I realized how big he’s getting. He was off playing with his friends, away from the house, doing big boy things. When I was watching him, I felt so proud. He was so kind, so polite, so good and sweet.
Anyway, I cried. Because I realized that as time moves on, my time and influence with him is becoming less and less. Next year, preschool is three days, and then the following year is full day Kindergarten. I hope he never forgets the time we’ve had, the laughter and tears (both his and mine) that accompany an entire day together. I hope he never thinks it’s uncool to snuggle his mama.
And then…today I put Chloe in the Bob for the first time. It was Taylor’s first and only stroller, and now Chloe gets to inherit it. Up until now, she’s only been in her Snap and Go. But, being that she’s almost 8 months (and really should have been in a normal stroller for some time now) I figured today would be the day. So while Taylor was at his best friends house, Chloe and I went thrift store shopping. When I put her in the stroller and looked at her all grown up, I cried.
And then…I was in the thrift store. I saw a dad and his pre-teen daughter shopping. He told her she could get whatever she wanted. He called her honey and sweetie, and you could tell it was their special time.
That was my dad. We loved to go to garage sales and thrift stores together. He called me honey and sweetie. And he always told me I could get whatever I wanted. It made me miss him. And then…I cried.
Being a mom is a roller coaster ride for sure. You are up and down, back and forth, you scream and cry and you want to get off, there’s throw up and nausea, laughter and fear….and before you know it, the ride stops and you have to get off. Only, you don’t want to because you realize how short it really was, and if you could just ride it one more time you’ll make sure to enjoy every twist and turn…puke and all.
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Your post made me tear up.
So true!
And then you made me cry!! I see my boy getting bigger before my eyes and he will be 2 in 11 days. I hope it doesn’t go so fast that I blink and he is the pre-teen. :o(
So true… In a way I just want them to be my babies forever!!
Very sweet post Summer. I teared up, mostly just because I want to START that ride!
Enjoy those precious kids and snuggle with them even when they fidget!
Aww now I want to cry, too. So very true.
It’s taken me a while to go through all the posts I’ve missed over the last week and a half! I’m glad that you have continued to ignore the scale, and am thoroughly impressed as always by your accessories (both the Wet Seal necklace and Chloe’s rockin’ headbands)!
And this post was beautiful and heartfelt. And sad, but in a good way. 🙂
I missed you, Summer!
It’s true about the influence, at least about the time to influence. I’m counting down now until ALL 5 of my kids are in school full-days, because it is actually coming up in three falls. You never think you’ll get to that stage. And then you do.
You spend years with your stroller. Maybe a decade (if you have 5 kids for it to go through). And then, you don’t need a stroller any more.
I still don’t know what to make of it. 🙂
And then your post made me cry! WAAAAAAAAA!!! I dont want my girls to get any older!!!!
I can only imagine all of the emotional ups and downs that come with being a mom. Such a sweet post.
Oh stop it! Now you’re making ME cry! 🙂 I love how you compared motherhood to a roller coaster….it’s so true. It’s a fun, crazy, and wild ride.
awww… made me cry. i had visions of my husband shopping with our daughter someday.
so special. thanks for sharing.
Oh Summer… so very true and so very touching and so very… teary, this post is! Being a mom is non-stop emotional. I cry almost everyday thinking about something about my children… they grow up too fast and I even get all freaked out thinking that my oldest is starting kindergarten in the fall… how will I cope with that?
Oh how I feel ya. Watching the Diva at her preschool program last week gave me those same feelings. We had to keep telling her to pay attention and quit looking at Austin… Sooo not ready for that. But she keeps asking what day it is and when she has school. I tell her its summertime and that I am her teacher for the summer. She gets all pouty and says she wants to go to Mrs. Sheilas. Which is fine, cause she lives across the street and has kids the same ages. But makes me a little sad and feel like I am not favored in this situation.
She starts 3 days a week next year too, and hopefully a dance class when she is 4 in the fall.
Tiny goat is growin like crazy too, she talks almost as well as the Diva. Which seems 10 kinds of CRAZY! Where have my babies gone!?
Know that I am right there with ya, but hoping, that maybe, we will be blessed again, sooner than later.
Aghhh, tears.
Taylor is going to remember your days together, Summer. When I think back on my life, I feel like the days at home with my Mom before I was of school age molded me the most. That’s why I started a little business before I start having kids… I want to be able to be home with them. I think that’s so important. He’ll remember… I’m certain!
Why are us mommies so emotional? I have had eniought crying these past 7 days to last me the rest of the year. I’m not kidding.
OMG! My son is turning two on Saturday and it has been very emotional for me. I feel ya!
Great post. So true.