A void beckoned within.
A soul mate. A love. A piece of my puzzle missing, and so the search began.
What I never expected or deserved was handed from above. Contentment. Love.
And yet, I remained incomplete.
Years later, the tears would fall. A longing. A familiar void.
Incomplete?
Babies. The answer would be babies.
With watered eyes, I shared such revelations with Jimmy. Together we held hands and took in the moment. The moment of finding completion. My tears of sadness turned to tears of hope.
A month went by and I became pregnant. 9 long months later, my beautiful son was born. I felt amazing. I had purpose. My baby.
Time continued to pass as the seasons changed, and yet I remained the same. Purposeless. Filled with a void. A longing.
Incomplete.
I had my soul mate. I had my baby. What could be missing?
And so I searched and searched. I cried and cried. Then I waited and waited.
Still nothing, and the void became all encompassing.
My self, my soul, my smile and heart….were lost to the search. The quest. The hopelessness.
A bigger house, a higher raise, a nicer car….another baby.
And still. I remained. Unfulfilled.
As a secret is whispered softly from ones lips to anothers ears, the truth recently became mine. My eyelids heavily came to a close. A breath escaped from my soul.
It was not outside of me. It was not even within my physical or emotional grasp.
Yet I felt it, I heard it. Beyond and inside. All encompassing. Lifting me up, beckoning me on. Right there, right here.
Standing still. I knew.
The void still existing…yet subsiding one breath at a time.
Nothing physical could make it dissipate.
So I give my heart, my soul, my life…all that is within and all that is external…and the moment I do,
His breath replaces mine.
Not lost, not without hope, not without purpose. Not unfulfilled. Created for a purpose.
One breath at a time, I draw nearer toward becoming perfectly complete.
© 2009 “Le Musings of Moi”
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Wow! That was beautiful!
You are so inspirational. Thanks for sharing.
beautifuuuullll 🙂
so pretty!
Hi Summer,I just started reading your blog and I love it! This post was beautiful! We are all created with this void that only He can fill.
you always amaze me with your words.
A-maz-ing!!
What a wonderful and perfect truth- thank you for voicing (writing?) it! 🙂
Breathtaking. Really. <3
You have such a way with words. I love this.
This is absolutely beautiful.
He draws us in when we are ready to hear Him…when His quiet whisper breaks through that noise we surround ourselves in during our “search”.
I’m so glad YOU heard His call and allowed the one who created us to fill that void. For He is the only one who truly can.
You found your God-sized hole and He filled it…I love it!
Beautiful post!
Beautiful post Summer, really it is.
Thank you for the reminder… I love it. Almost like a poem.
So beautiful.
Ummmm, what!?! Wow!!! This is BEAUTIFUL Summer!!
Wow! This is wonderful.
What I love the most about this very sweet and simple story is your non-intrusive angle. It’s pretty core, and clear, yet no judgements, fluff. No verses are left which can leave others feeling alienated, especially when people interpret things differently. I’m posting a link to this- loved it : )