finding balance

When words leap from my mind to the screen and something beautiful is formed, I am left with a feeling of worthiness. As though, my being created suddenly has meaning. I am defined. I have a gift.
When I snuggle with my Taylor on the couch or cozied up in my bed, and he wraps his arms around me and whispers I am his best friend, my heart melts. I feel successful. Loved. Complete.
When my children are bathed and fed and we’re playing on the floor enveloped in laughter, and my husband walks in the door to see such beauty…my heart soars. I am doing what I was meant to do.
When the kids are nestled under their covers dreaming peacefully, and my man and I are engaged in words so sweet, I know I’m building a legacy.
My struggle, I find, is the balance. The intentionality of it all. Finding a way to bring all the things together that bring beauty and purpose. To make them all fit. To make them all flow.
Le Musings was the beginning of finding purpose outside my home. A way to the outside. A habit of growing something that I have kept hidden inside since the birth of my babies. A way of connecting lives and souls together.
Would I ever shut down this portal I have created? I can’t say that I would. I need to write, I need to share…I need it to grow, to be better, to be me.
Would I alter the way things are done, so as to be even more present in my home, in my life? Without a doubt.
Because while readers, comments, love, stats, and followers are incredibly uplifting to my soul, to my gift…
If I lose the real fans, the three in my home, the three hearts beating outside my body, my extended selves…my husband, my son, my daughter…my gift would have no meaning…..and then it was all for nothing.
© 2009 “Le Musings of Moi”
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Comments

  1. Aww, that is so sweet. I love my blog, but sometimes wonder if I spend too much time on here. Then I am reminded that what little bit of my sanity that is left, would totally be gone if I didnt have this outlet.

    Plus when I read great posts like yours, it is a reminder of just how lucky I am as well.

  2. I think this type of outlet is so crucial to a woman’s sanity, especially a woman whose heart is spread as thin as a mother’s!

    You’re completely right that having this type of hobby is what helps make you a better person for your family. All the energy is worthwhile in the end 🙂

  3. when you said……
    If I lose the real fans, the three in my home, the three hearts beating outside my body, my extended selves…my husband, my son, my daughter…my gift would have no meaning…..and then it was all for nothing.

    I think about that alot lately and have kind of backed off the blog world because of it. I dont want my daughter to have ‘childhood memories’ of me always sitting in front of a computer…..I want to be active in life.

  4. Stopping by from Mama Kat’s. This is a beautiful post, and sounds like you have your priorities straight!

  5. You must have read my mind! I need my blog too — it is the only thing I have right now that feels like it is purely for me. But it has been taking over a bit more than I want it to and I need to find that balance … because it IS the two other people in my life who are worth more than 10,000 followers or 1,000,000 comments or any other thing I might get from blogging. Well said Summer. : )

  6. Wow. That.was.beautiful. You are a gifted writer and I’ll be back for sure! Stopping by from Mama Kat’s WW and glad I did!

  7. Your post has good balance and expresses a really valid point. It’s hard to focus with so much energy on the home and people in our home without losing ourselves. Writing on your blog is a way to balance yourself out and remind yourself that YOU exist. Balance is very important. 🙂

  8. oh wait…we are supposed to feed these little things? and bathe them? whoa back up a minute! I did not sign up for all this work!

    Beautifully written!

  9. I am trying to find a balance also. It is tough trying to do the things that bring you joy and keep everything else going smoothly……

    Great post!

  10. We all need an outlet. My blog gives me that. But we need balance also. Sometimes my kids are the neediest when I am in the middle of writing a post. I have learned to tend to their needs first. The blog will always be there.

  11. Summer,
    I just love how you use words. You always seem to say what I am feeling but have not yet found a way to say it.
    This sure is a beautiful gift that you have.
    Thank you for sharing it.

  12. What a great way to put it!! I’ve been struggling to find balance (as have a lot of us, it seems). I’m slowly figuring it out… very, very slowly (as I do most things 🙂

  13. Beautiful post – truly moving. I struggle to find balance and keep my sanity. I am so glad you stopped by and left me a comment so I could come find you. I will be back. I have a lot/hate relationship with p90x. Did you have good results?

  14. what a moving post :o) I can really tell you love your family!

  15. This was beautiful- I feel the same way.

  16. this was beautifully written! thank you for sharing 🙂

  17. I’m not a woman, but I do know a couple. I think that the blogging universe for a stay at home mom is an important outlet when all you see is kids and a tired guy. (Whom, if he’s anything like me, has his childish moments.)

  18. You are so right. The important “things” are not things at all, but those people you brought into this world, and love with all your heart.

    At times, it’s hard to remember this.

  19. You and Jenners really summed up my thoughts with your posts on this very topic. It is SO easy to get drawn in to writing, reading, commenting, stressing about losing numbers and all that, but you are just so stinking right ON with everything you wrote. The balance is still hard for me, but lately I’m realizing that I need to figure out a way to blog, but to not leave my family out as much. I was telling my husband that I lost 2 followers in the last two days. His response? “You won’t lose me.” Exactly. You always amaze me with your eloquence and the way you can say things so clearly. Beautiful post.

  20. Very nice and so true. 🙂 It’s so important to bring blogging and family into proper perspective.

    OHHHHHH before I forget as I had meant to comment about this before. You are sooo right. My SAHM post was a bit confusing in the way I wrote it. Thanks for pointing that out. I rearranged the wording. I used to be a SAHM, but last year in august (2008) i went back to work. I hope, pray i’ll be back home soon again. That way I can once again dispell the misconception that SAHM STAY AT HOME. This one never did! lol

  21. Hi — what writers workshop do you do? I would love “assignments” that a workshop provide to get you thinking about things you might not normally write about. Enjoy your writing!