No no, it’s not self pity. Really, I promise. I feel great! I’m good enough, I’m smart enough….and doggone it….people like me. (please tell me you’ve seen this Saturday Night Live skit….)
But wait, no, that’s not working. If only it was that easy.
Ever have those days where you just don’t feel like you’ll be good enough? Oh, well of course most of you don’t. It’s just me. I knew it. It’s just me. See, I’m just not good enough…
Well, like, I’ll read something somebody else wrote, something super funny and well written, and right after the moment of enjoying it has passed, a thought like this crosses my mind….”Oh poor sad me. Why can’t I write like that? Why can’t I be funny and witty and pretty….” Well, something like that anyway.
Or, I’ll have an off day as a mom. (I mean, rarely this happens of course….) And I’ll think, “Aw man, I’m a bad mom. I’ll never be as good as so and so….”
Or I’ll forget to call a friend or two, or a family member or three….and I’m right back there again. “Why can’t I just be good enough….”
Ew, I’m annoying myself as I write it out. I’m pathetic in the self pity stage.
I guess as I’m trying to grow in the acceptance and grace thing, I should take an attempt at turning that towards myself as well. (Especially when I’m not receiving it from the ones I love.) In fact, I think most women (especially moms) should learn how to do that. My advice…to myself of course, is to ignore all those judgers and unhappy people who will never be content with what I’m able to give right now in my life, and know that I am doing my best and that is good enough.
So Stewart Smalley…show us how it’s done. And if that doesn’t work, try typing out all your thoughts in a blog, and you’ll see just how pathetic your “not good enough” thoughts really are. That should pull you right out! Or better yet, pray. Ya, I’m heading there now.
Hey girl! Trust me, I think everyone feels that way… BUT, just know that you ARE that “funny, witty” writer you want to be!!! 🙂 I love reading everything/anything from you! On the train… I’ll call soon! Love ya!
Oh I definitely have those days. Just yesterday was one. Hang in there! You’re an awesome writer, and Stuart Smaley has nothing on you.
Bloggy hugs and kisses
Wep
ugh – I’ve had one of those weeks! especially when I’m so exhausted that it takes everything I have to get the “neccessities” taken care of – and none left over for blogging.
I love the Stuart Smalley reference – and the photo!
And, you obviously are the incarnation of his mantra. People keep coming by to read your site!
🙂 Have some chocolate (for me) and get your endorphins & creativity flowing…..
We’ve all been there. I think I am on a daily basis. LOL
You are great just the way you are!
Why aren’t I cute and blonde like you? Sigh.
And, your pregnancy in the thighs comment in roll call had me laughing out loud.
So there.
I feel like that some times but then ya, much as we don’t want to think of what others say, it still impacts us in a big way. What’s with that? I guess it’s our craving for recognition? Wanting to be on top of things all the time? heck, we’re just women- hormonal- period! 🙂
i think its something we all feel as people. just this morning i’ve asked myself, “Why doesn’t my baby fall asleep without screaming like ___?” “Why isn’t my house as nice as ____?” “Why do I worry I am not as good as ___?”
then I sat down for a whole 45 minutes and watched 90201 and ate chocolates. i thought ABOUT NOTHING.
Hang in there. Sometimes the crazy goes away.
Oh Wow This post brings me back! Love ol’ Stuart!! Thanks for the chuckle!!!
Sits Sister Rachel