boldly walk towards change

I feel like I have changed so much since I started this blog, and I’ve been feeling as though it was time this blog changed with me.

What was started on a whim one hazy ambien night, has actually become an incredibly important part of my life.

And while my blog is the midst of transformation, I must confess, that my heart is as well.

My heart, my life, my everything.

Sometimes life is messy and complicated and things aren’t the way you want them to be.
And sometimes you have to get completely honest and real and confess the truth, in order for there to be healing, growth and restoration.

It started with my faith.
Which makes sense….because that needed to be stronger before I could handle anything else in my life falling apart.

Falling apart. 

It sounds so painful, so devastating, so final…but I’m starting to see falling apart so very differently.
Because  when something is built on shaky ground, it has to crumble in order for God to fully restore and put it back together again.

On solid ground.

With Him as the foundation.

My faith had crumbled, and in that healing moment on Good Friday, I realized the pain and doubt and hurt were all worth it.

I needed to be restored, and in that happening, my faith became stronger than it has ever been.

For the first time in a long time, I have joy and peace.

And this other stuff falling apart now, I honestly believe will end up exactly the same.

Yes, it’s intense and it hurts and at times I want to quickly go back to pretending and not being truthful because it didn’t involve this kind of pain.

But, I can see Him.
I’m looking only at Him.
And despite the people and circumstances around me, I am filled with hope.

This change, with my blog and in my life, couldn’t have come at a better time.

I’m ready to boldly walk towards change…

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