Archives for May 2011

Oh life.

Brain.

Emotions and hormones.

Okay, chemical imbalance or not, we are all on a different playing field.

We ALL react to stress differently, we ALL handle life differently.

My journey has brought me to this.

You have to find what works best for you.

It’s not about being weak and wanting to eliminate feelings.

Quite the contrary.

It’s about finding a balance so that we CAN feel feelings, rather than stay in one monstrous one for an extended period of time.

I set on my journey to see where God really wanted me.  I followed every twist and turn, and held onto hope the entire time.  It’s not been easy.  But, I have pressed on seeking the Lord and the counsel of wise friends and mentors.  I’ve not been alone.

I’ve learned important lessons too.

I appreciate more the simple moments of life.

I have a deeper love and appreciation for those who have taken the time to listen, pray, and still love me throughout it all.

I am more madly in love with my husband who has been unbelievably patient, loving, supportive and understanding through each and every icky moment.

It’s been a LONG and sometimes very tiring 2 and a half months.

Trying this, reading that, staying one step ahead, and tossing all the conflicting information back and forth in my head wondering what is true and what is not.

And through it all, I have continually dropped to my knees asking God to simply make it clear to me.

I have been up and down, and back and forth with my theories.

I’ve read the books, the message boards, all the research I could find….

and this is what it came down to.

What worked for some, didn’t work for others.
And vice versa.

I also learned that there is always an extreme opinion one way or another.
And really, what lies there in middle is what I find to have the most truth.

We will never be free of emotions.
Or moods.
We are human.
Perfectly imperfect humans.
And I believe God made us that way, and it’s okay, because it just shows how much we NEED Him….

That has been my biggest lesson.
Where there were times I used to feel alone, I now know without a shadow of a doubt, that I am NOT.
He is always there, always ready to carry my burden…
he is ALWAYS my strength and comfort.

John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

That said, we live in a world now where there is comfort and relief in medication.
And if you find that NOTHING else has worked, and your life is being affected to the point you can’t function…

Know This.

YOU ARE NOT WEAK TO TAKE MEDICATION.

In fact, you are stronger than ever, knowing that you must do what it takes to care for yourself and your family, and to be present in your life.

But remember that the work can’t stop with taking medication, whether natural or prescribed, because you have a lifetime of learning to do in order for growth to happen.

All in all…
in my little “experiment” I have realized that we all struggle.
Not a single one of us is free from the fun times of moods.
And only YOU (and the Lord) can know and find the path that is right for you.
Seek Him and He will carry you through.

It’s a promise.

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”

I haven’t lost that blogging feeling, I promise.

I’ve just been busy.  Isn’t that crazy?!?  A mom being busy???

But, it’s not all for the kids, some of it actually has to do with you!

I have been working on some videos for you guys…

setting up some awesome giveaways….

working on a bit o’ marketing to share some stuff I am considering trying out…

My word, I’m kind of like a business chick…um if business chick meant a mom in sweats doing laundry and wiping snotty noses.

My life is so glamorous, be jealous people.

Anyway, as of tomorrow, I’ll be away from the kids, away from the tasks…and finally able to catch up on all that I’ve been wanting to share!

Can. Not. Wait.

{btw, i’m looking to get sponsored to BlogHer ’11, so if anyone has information on that, let me know!}

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”

….they bring my mother’s day meaning….

Happy Mother’s Day.

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”

I quite like the whole bringing back my vintage posts thing.  Maybe I’ll even start doing it once a week…

{a.k.a. the lazy bloggers post}

This weeks vintage post is called: 

Well that, and the phrase: “No Mom, I don’t want to do that right now. Here’s the plan, I’ll do what I want to do first and then I’ll do what you want me to do. Okay Mom?”

Which brings me to my first point.

I used to think I was patient until I had kids. But now…

Well, I find it’s my struggle every single day. I have to BREATHE. Sometimes very deeply. Well, not sometimes….often.

I don’t know what it is about kids that makes it so hard to be patient. I mean, I’ve had boyfriends who required more patience than my own kids do. And yet,

Daily, Hourly…Minute by Minute, I have to breathe.

I used to think I would never make the same mistakes that my parents made. And yet, as I grow up, I realize I’m just as human as they are. And mistakes have and have yet to be made.

I used to think that I understood God. But, with seeing life happen all around me, I realize I don’t understand His ways at all. I will never understand Him. But, I understand my own ways even less, and I actually am me. (Woah, that’s deep.) So, rather than try to figure it all out, I will simply trust Him instead.

I used to think I wasn’t worthy of being forgiven. Too many times mistakes were held over my head by others, but most often by myself. Now, in learning to forgive the people I love and seeing forgiveness being given to others, I realize that I am just as worthy as they are.

I used to think I didn’t want a boy, until I had Taylor. And then even though he has kept me humble, I started to think I only wanted boys and quickly decided I didn’t want a girl. But, then I had Chloe, and now I’m happy I have one of each.

I used to think I would never be close with my sisters. But now, they are some of my closest friends, and I depend on their love and friendship more than anything.

I used to think I liked jeans, but now I adore elastic.

I used to have time to think…oh those were the days.

I used to think, but all this goes to show that I really don’t know much even after all that thinking.

Hmm, there is surely a lesson to be learned here, but I don’t want to think anymore.

© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”