Archives for March 2011
you want free stuff, right?
she makes me crafty
tutorial here
tutorial here
Sorry.
I tried it once…and I got kicked out of the club.
I’ll stick to felt flowers.
Swoon.
revolution organic foods deal on amazon
are you there {lamp} god? it’s me summer
iStress, the great lamp crisis of 2011
Stick with green?
Ruffles or not?
Which is, I need to find one, preferably rectangle that is longer than 9 inches.
(okay, SHE said on that one for sure! orrrrrr, maybe not.)
How small does it look next to that lamp?
In fact, my sister (heather) and I have been texting back and forth, and now my problem is her problem, and we’re both considering a drink to calm ourselves down.
And by “I” I mean “we” because now you are involved in this issue and I expect that you will have the words of wisdom that will bring resolution.
Go ahead…comment away!
My sanity depends on it.
{this would be the time my “critics” on that one site should speak and offer advice rather than talk behind my back. a girl needs her gays!}
our home back in the staged day
This place felt like home the moment I stepped inside….
are you a SAD girl? there’s an APP for that.
{also known as a Scale ADdict….}
It used to control my life, my days, my emotions.
Each and every morning I would wake up and right after a good pee, I’d step on that baby and let out a deep breath…hoping in some scientific way that just maybe that breath would release another half a pound.
And then, ever so reluctantly, I would look down and focus in on a number that would then determine exactly how I would feel about myself for the rest of that day.
That three digit number controlled me.
If it was within range of my ideal, I would smile, bounce out of the bathroom and sing a lovely song with the birds outside my window.
If it was above my range, even by a half pound, tears would well up in my eyes and I’d pinch my stomach, my thighs, my arms….and want to crawl back into bed because something was obviously so wrong with me that I couldn’t keep to a “simple” goal.
Can you even imagine such a life?
I bet you can.
Because I know for a fact that I’m not the only SAD girl out there.
This went on for years.
YEARS!!!!
So many mornings wasted. So many days wasted. So many TEARS wasted!!!
If you’ve followed me for a length of time, you know my journey through my body image issues….and you know that finally at one point I just decided enough was enough.
So I schlepped my SAD bootie into counseling and decided to face it head on and find healing.
But I didn’t find healing in just the counseling.
I mean it was good, and it was necessary, and I certainly began to understand WHY I had those issues and quite possibly WHERE they came from….but what I didn’t get from it was a cure.
There was no formula written down that allowed me to be free.
I had to find that for myself…and little did I know, there was an APP for that.Action, Prayer, and Patience.
I could no longer WISH to change…I had to take ACTION to change.
And that is when I gave up the scale for good.
While it didn’t fix me instantly by doing so, it was a HUGE catalyst in helping me to let go of the daily struggle I faced.
{along with that, I read Change Your Habits Change Your Life, which also helped tremendously!}
But in order to find strength for those ACTIONS, I needed a lot of PRAYER.
I had little self control when it came to my bad habits, and I definitely accepted that I needed all the spiritual strength I could get.
I knew that God’s hope was for me to see myself through His eyes.
The same eyes I see my own daughter through….and so daily…hourly sometimes, I would lift up my struggles in PRAYER.
And when I did, He was, WITHOUT FAIL, faithful to provide comfort and strength.
Finally, I had to find PATIENCE.
Or rather, I had to pray for PATIENCE.
Since this struggle didn’t come on overnight, I had to come to terms with the fact that it wouldn’t be cured overnight either.
I would never make progress without a little patience and grace.
And now it’s been 6 months since I’ve stepped on a scale and looked at the numbers (i have stepped on the scale at the doctors, but asked them not to tell me)…and I feel that I truly am free from that addiction. BUT, I am not naive enough to think that I am absolutely healed and cured, and I’m okay with that. Because I am learning that the best things in life take TIME….and on this I will not give up.
I am far from recovered, yet absolutely reformed.
If you’re thinking you couldn’t do it…that you are destined to be a SAD girl for life…
know this:
I could have NEVER imagined giving it up either.
In fact, I remember my sister telling me she didn’t own a scale one day, and I looked at her like she had a third eye.
Who didn’t own a scale and live by it every single day???
A happy girl, that’s who.
And that’s exactly who I’m becoming each and every day I apply my APP.
I have to ask….
Are you a SAD girl?
Are you finally ready to get the APP and join me in recovery?
It maybe tough…but in the end, I promise you…
The freedom you’ll feel is kind of ahhh mazing.
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{obviously there are lots of people out there fully able to weigh daily and be okay and healthy and normal about it. for those of you, consider yourself blessed, and weigh on!}
*um….i think i found the topic for the book i’ll write one day, ya think?
can you say soapbox?
links are to relevant stories of mine, and in addition here’s more of the story behind me…
in case you missed it.
all images via weheartit
© 2011 “Le Musings of Moi”
our master bedroom in process
It’s a tricky task keeping the bedroom calm, serene, and relaxed when you have a desk o’bills in there as well…
But calm and serene it will be…in my own way at least.
And because time is a tickin’, it’s time to put my ideas into action!
They were an impulse buy, but they’re not exactly what I envisioned, as I was hoping to find something a little funkier and quite possibly a tad taller.
But maybe they’re fine.
Or maybe I’ll just leave the tags on and in the meantime keep (patiently) looking at my thrift stores and on craigslist.
LOVE!
Kind of noticing a theme here…
~BUY art or mirrors for above the night stands. =)
and I know there’s more that will pop up here and there as well.
um…
Like I said, always in process.
{if you wanna see my inspiration pictures, check out my bookmarks blog}
speaking of shopping…
i went shopping and i’m happy
Because, ahem…I NEEDED it.