Merry Christmas!!!
I hope you guys all had an amazing OOC day.
Ours was incredible.
Better than we could have ever expected, and what truly made it that way, was our time with family.
And trust me….some of our family background….mmmm….well, um….no words.
I’ll just say, we had low expectations for part of it, and we ended up being blown away in the end.
Good ol’ hope. Bites ya in the butt every time. And we are renewed by it once again.
I also may have shed a tear when I heard Taylor share with his Papa that this was the best Christmas he has ever had.
And he meant it.
My sweet love.
Anyway….now I have a pile o’stuff to go through, a home to clean…and a dead tree to dispose of….(dumpster at midnight?)
so in the meantime, enjoy another one of my favorites.
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Sometimes it’s good for me to go back and read again something I wrote….because usually it’s something God is trying to teach me again.
And again.
And again.
This is one of those posts:
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‘Fears simply reveal where we have yet to grow. And each time we fight and win, that fear turns to courage.’
~mike quinn
Fears are never easy to live with. They’re even harder to face. And overcoming them takes courage in itself.
I’ve never been a fearful person.
I loved change, loved the unknown, loved adventures.
I was fearless, young, unafraid.
And so, ten years ago, I bravely packed my car and left for California, without a plan.
No friends, no job, no life. Yet, I knew it was to be my home. I had no fear.
As the years moved forward, taking my maturity with it, I began to learn.
Life began to happen.
Pain multiplied.
It became something real, not just something internal I chose to torture myself with. It was tangible.
It was there.
There became something to lose.
I fell in love. With a man, with my babies, with my life.
I now had something, someones, to lose.
And when life began to happen to me, seeing that it reached out beyond me, I found fear.
Life brought me anxiety. Anxiety brought me fear.
Yet I vowed. I would not be held captive.
I would fight. For me, for my loves.
I find many things that remind me of that time. That time of life was not kind.
And when I face them, I want to run. I want to hide, because what if?
What if I don’t conquer?
What if I lose?
What if, once again, it is not just me who will hurt?
Fears simply reveal where we have yet to grow. And each time we fight and win, that fear turns to courage.
And then I remember that truth. I must press forward, face the fear, and walk away armored with growth and courage.
Slowly, I feel the freedom. Hesitantly I face the reminders. There remains just one more.
In time, in short time, I will be face to face with the final hurdle.
But I won’t run. I won’t hide.
I won’t allow in that fear that wants to grip my thoughts and mind.
For again, I now have something to lose. But even more to gain.
My loves.
Because from me, they will learn. From me, they will grow.
As long as I continue to face the fear.
© 2009 “Le Musings of Moi”
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I am SO happy that you guys had the amazing Christmas that you WEREN’T expecting! That is just awesome.
I love that post on fear…. you are an amazing writer my friend!
Have a great weekend 🙂
Great post!
Although I am sorry you found fear..it sounds like you manage to kick it in the proverbail butt most of the time!
glad you had a great christmas summer! i love spending time with the family during the holidays! (and other days too, hehe)
that section about fear… thanks for sharing… being an imperfect person, i still have tons of fear to overcome but i’m determined to win. 🙂
belated merry christmas!
I’m glad your Christmas turned out so well!
So happy that your holidays were so awesome!
Family makes everything better! Hope the rest of your holiday season is just as wonderful.
P.s. I think you should do a post on new years outfits! I could really use some help!!!