To catch up, read Part 1.
Not a month after graduation, I packed up my car and said a tearful goodbye to my family. While sad to be leaving them, I knew that this was exactly what I needed.
I rolled down the windows and blasted my music, and sang the entire drive to my new home.
Boise, as I mentioned….and as you might know, certainly isn’t California. In fact, it reminded me a lot of B town. Small and secluded. And nothing nothing nothing beyond it’s borders.
While I was feeling suffocated by yet another small town, my boyfriend must have been suffocating from having a girlfriend in the same town. Because not a week after I settled in, he settled up with another girl.
And so, we broke up.
Broken hearted and broke, I had to dig in my heels and save up another three months before I could move back home. Did I mention I was living with his sister?!? Ya, so that was fun.
I don’t know what hurt me more. Being cheated on, being alone in Boise, or knowing I had to go back to B town. A place I thought I had left for good.
But, go home I did. And when I got there, I gave up on everything and I began to make some bad choices. I’d partied a bit in high school, but now I took it to a new level. I made bad choices with friends, with boys, with life.
I was empty inside. I cried almost every night as I went home to my tiny apartment. I’d stare in the mirror and wonder who I had become.
After a year and half of this…I found myself at a party like all the rest. The night was a mess, drama ensued and I once again found myself at home wondering what had become of my life. Who were these people I was calling my friends? Who were these guys I was giving myself and my heart to?
So, in order to figure things out, I did the only thing that worked best for me. I sat down and wrote. I wrote for what seemed like hours. My fears, my regrets, my pain…my dreams, my hopes, and all my possibilities spilled from my pen into my journal. With every word written, came a million more tears. But, when it was all out, finally….so were my tears.
I felt resolve.
The next day my mom called. They had news that they would be moving to California. She’d been offered a job there and in just one month they would be packing up and leaving. I begged them to take me with them. To just let me live with them for one month, and I promised I would find a job and a place to live and be on my own. They agreed.
Elated…I began to make plans.
This time I was really going to leave. And this time, I would not be back….
{To be continued…}
© 2009 “Le Musings of Moi”
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Woot. I know it was in the past but I’m so excited for the Cali move. It’s like reading a book. I want to know what happened next.
Love it…and looking forward to the follow up of this story.
nooooooo… you can’t keep me in suspense like that!!!!!
I’m waiting for part three. I hate hearing stuff like this because it seems unfair that life has to be this way sometimes for people. I’ve had my moments. I know that it ends in a happy ending so i’m patiently waiting for the rest. 🙂
Girl, you’re writing is riveting!! I want the next installment now! lol, patience isn’t exactly my strongest virtue 😉
xoxo J
I never saw that coming! So glad you were making it to CA with your parents! Exciting!
haha! I love the suspense of the story. So good! I am glad you’re getting a new start, even if this is from the past!
Man! I can totally relate! Especially to the suffocation of a small town and needing to move on from your past there. Good read… Loving it! Keen as for part 3!
Stupid boys, we sacrifice for them and they cheat. Im glad you got away from him, cant wait for Part 3, keep up the amazing writing!!!
I am riveted!
oh come on!…you can’t keep us on hold like that!!!
hope the Vegas weekend was cool!
xxx
Oh I love you, but you keep leaving me haning on these cliffs! Can’t wait for the next chapter 🙂
Ohhh I am ready for more!!!
OH…I want more! Just like reading a good book I need to know what happens next!
California here you come! things are starting to turn around for ya at this point..i’m so happy! off to read the next part…
That bastard!!